Thursday, August 18, 2011

OH MAN...WE ARE A GO...

So today we found out that we got the financing for IVF ..I just got the contract emailed to me and will be signing and making it official...Im trying to feel excited and happy right now, but I mostly find that I am concerned, worried,  fearful and nervous...*sigh*  IVF will possibly bring us the family we have been longing for and have been waiting for 7 years now...I suppose its normal,  I was mentally & emotionally  in another place back when we first started this baby making journey 7 years ago...I felt whole, strong and full of optimism...now after 7 years of soo much disappointment, I feel it has slowly chipped that wholeness, strength and optimism away..if that makes any sense....soo now I feel more fragile emotionally & mentally....I certainly didnt think that I would have to face such a difficult process just to have a Baby ...and expensive at that.. even before its conceived!... :( I am thankful though that we do at least have this option that we can try...and this financing has officially made it a reality and a possibility :).. I hope to find my strength & optimism again...and get through this one day at a time...I know I will have the support of my close friends and family which is very encouraging...Love you guys! I will need you soo much more than ever!

Now we are just waiting for my next cycle to start, which is around the 14th or so of Sept. I will then start taking birth control pills and I am going to be on them for about 3 weeks. Within that time I have a couple tests that need to be scheduled and we need to go in to get injection training...I am hoping that I dont have to give them to myself and either my mom or my husband can do them...but I still need to know how to do it just in case...I found out that most of the needles that I will be using are only about 1/2 inch long..not bad....the longest one I will need to use is 1 1/2 inches long..that one needs to be given on my bum...lol....and someone has to give it to me cause I wont be able to do it myself...well again now its just waiting for my period to come and we can start the process. Aracely

3 comments:

Jonalyn said...

We haven't met (I'm Phil's cousin) but I am totally excited for you! I understand firsthand how painful infertility is (well, to be fair, secondary infertility. Still upsetting.) and I hope you only need this one cycle to start your family. :) I'll be checking in to see how your hormones are treating you! ;-)

Aracely said...

Thank you Jonalyn for your kind words and wishes ;).. its soo nice to meet you! If you dont mind me asking, how long did you and your husband struggle with infertility? What procedures did you try?

Jonalyn said...

Oh, it was a good 4 years, I think. Had all those fun tests (including the nasty HSG I saw you mention in a post ... UNPLEASANT), and did all the typical procedures reccommended before trying IVF ... and y'know what? I'm gonna look for your email address. I'm pretty sure your sis has spammed you & me at the same time, so I must have it somewhere! ;-) It'll be better than leaving a 3-page comment!